Dear Players,

Ohhhhh, what a day...
It has been a great day today. Like I sad in my one of my last posts. It will take a lot to change my mind not to leave Turkey this coming week. My mind of leaving has already changed a bit for the better, about my stay in Turkey.
Today I had my breakfast at 07.00 am. Its quite a early hour for me to have breakfast. Today I had my first casting for some turkish apparel and I got the job. Of course I didn’t expect anything else., Hihi !
After the casting had finished. I had to wait for the girl second casting to finish. So I took myself some time getting to know the other models. They all seems very nice. Tonight we where suppose to go to a Big Villa Party outside Istanbul. But some of the girls are working early the day after(Sunday) so the party must be in the city of Istanbul. So we had to cancel the dinner as well. After both casting where done. We all got our beautiful model assets in to the van and headed straight back to the hotel. Time 12.30.
Took a brake at the hotel for 15 minutes. After the quick rest me, Oscar,, Karen and Daniela went to smoke some shisha and drinking tea. We drank apple and mint flavoured tea. Ate some Kebab for lunch today as well.
Been back at the hotel for couple of hours now. Teaching oscar how to set up his own blog etc. I’m glad that I can help him. He seems to get a hang of it pretty fast. After all its easier then many people think. It all takes a bit of persistence.
Tonight there will be party pics and more.
Here are pics from my lovely day.

Breakfast




Lobby waiting for the car..


"Cemal" our driver..


Me and Karen from brazil.


Casting room with clients.



Yeah, let's smoke it up..





Murat from turkey. We met him at the restaurant. Cool guy.




Oscar is throwing a "BLUESTEEL". GO OSCAR BRO !


I can feel it baby ;)


So can I..Says: Danilea


If you guys can feel it, then look at me ;) hahaha....





"Oscar & Karen" Posing while ordering food.


Gonna go up stairs to my room and fresh up now. The party is WAITING BABY !

Yehhhhhhhaaaaaaaa......

LOVE,

Patrick

Dear Players,

Don’t know where to start. Sitting in the breakfast and dinner room at “Peradoor Hotel” together with some other models.
This morning I changed to this hotel. Its more fun here. Met some other models already from Brazil, Argentina, Hungary. We all might be going out tonight for a party ? Some of the models are working the next day (Saturday). So it wont be to late, if we go to party.
To be honest. I don’t like the majority of turkish people I’ve met so far. It seems like there culture is all about hustle and cheat each other. Totally opposite of what I stand for. I might be leaving turkey early next week. People are not friendly at all and its to damn cold here.
Lets see if something happens this week, that will change my mind.
I still deciding where to go after turkey. There are so many places to choose between. Hmmmmmmmmmm ????????
Any suggestions ?

Cheers,

Patrick

With the guys from my first Hotel".


Hotel Peradoor, where the models are staying from Flash. Very central area.


sightseeing a bit. The wheater was bad today and super cold.


Down at the tramway.






Mosque.


Time for lunch.


Yummy, bread with kebab..



With the other models back at the hotel. In the back "Oscar" from Hungary. the girl on the right from "Oscar is "Alessandra" from Brazil and from the left of her. "Rebecca" from Madrid (Spain).


Stayed home tonight. Still a bit jet lag. So I fall a sleep around 19.00 pm until 01.00 am. Time is now 3.50 am and having some coffe down at the lobby.

Going to bed soon.

Tomorrow we "oscar is going to cock a dinner at friends house, then we all go for party.

Cheers,

Patrick

TURKEY !

Dear Players,

Just woke up, time is now 09.00. Got some things to do today. Will fill you Players in later.
I got this email today to my personal Inbox. This person who wrote this email, I wont post the person name here. The email is explaining perfectly what problem Avi Siwa has, and how I feel about it.
Its so precise in many way I couldn’t had sad it better. I really hope Avi and her family read this post. So Avi and they can realize her problem. And take her to a doctor. Because her problem, I could see already when I started to date Avi Siwa one year ago.. Its just she doesn’t see it herself. And her family doesn’t know her that well. Her family is very split. And now after sometime trying to rescue her buy trying to fuck things up for me. It really shows her family dont know their own daughter. So sad, so sad... To be a so-called family.

Heres the email:
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Hey Patrick,
   
  Just recently got to read your blog and I was surprised with what happened with you two... this time I really think you have reached your tipping point. No matter how hard you try to love, it just isn't enough and that is really frustrating don't you think? Avi turned you into obssession and that is not love anymore, if you really love a person you will let her/him free because you know that your relationship is built on fundamental values of trust, honesty, love and not on superficial things such as looks, brains, money, influence and power (things that can go away). I guess a whirlwind relationship is such a bad idea, taking things slowly should be the step.
   
  Like the first comment I said to you before, Avi is depressed. There are different kinds of depression (bipolar, manic-depressive, and so on) only a pyschologist or psychiatrist will know the diagnosis, it will really make you nuts if you are the partner becuase one time it feels like that you are in heaven and a sudden mood shift it looks like you don't know your partner anymore as he/she turned into a monster of sorts. Being in a relationship with a depressed person (there is mild and there is clinical (which is always recurring)) is very difficult, it takes a lot of stress out of you. The person you knew before is no longer the same and sometimes you wish that she returns to where you are before. You will also need a lot of patience (tons of it) and understanding to be with that person. I did study or made a research on this when I was really attracted to someone who I discovered suffering depression, I really would want to show that I care and love and sometimes it
 makes me nuts not knowing if the other person do really feel that I care.
   
  Have you heard about the term co-dependency? It is typically called for people in relationship with a drug addiction. It can be similarly called to a relationship with someone who is depressed. It happens when you let yourself be manipulated and abused by the person suffering depression or addiction and will constantly tell you he/she loves you to get your affection in return for giving them money to buy drugs/ or to drag you with them in their misery. The painful thing is you try to give all your love but they will not understand it. This is a vicious cycle that can only stop when they get therapy and medication (for the depressed) and rehabilitation (for the drug addict). 
   
  You just have to let them deal with it at their own pace, realization will only come when they hit bottom (the abyss of the drug addiction or depression). This is the time when they realize that they are self-destructing and only when they seek/ask for help and recognize that they really need help will they be able to claw their way up. Depression/addiction is a disease in the Brain, it is not BAD at all, society just labels things. People should recognize that people are afflicted with it either by genetics or the alteration of their brain because of drugs. They are not WEAK or DIFFERENT from us all, they are just afflicted with this terrible disease. You just really have to be UNDERSTANDING, PATIENT and CARING and be SUPPORTIVE no matter what. Just ACCEPT what she throws on you. 
   
  Do not pick a fight or retaliate with what Avi is doing, what she is doing is simply a symptom of her present mental state (it can still be cured but it will take time). What is it good for both of you showing your dirty laundry to the public? Her parents or friends siding with her is very normal, of course they will always see the perspective of their child or friend because they know her for a long time, just understand that this is a very normal reaction. What good will it do to both of you if you will undermine each other? Since you put up this blog you made yourself public property but sometimes you have to keep things private. Your relationship is between the both of you too and do not let other people intrude on it. You, being a co-dependent in this partnership, will also self-destruct if you continue exposing things that should be kept private.
   
  The only solution is Avi should go to a pyschiatrist/pyschologist to help her deal with your problem and be FRIENDS ( if what you had was really Love and not anything else, it will not easily be destroyed by arguments and fights, you had your good times and a share of bad times). And sad to say my friend, as what my other friends have advice to me . . . is to WALK AWAY and let the other person deal with her problem on her own time/pace. My friend also told me that I SHOULD ALWAYS THINK of MYSELF FIRST or else I will be dragged into the vicious cycle and it will not be helpful (Study Al-Annon, the 12 Steps, Alcoholic Anonymous, Depression forums). The SAD THING is you LOVE the person but they will never feel it because of this terrible disease that has affected them. I think AVI is still A GREAT PERSON, its just that this Disease/State of Mind has clouded the real person, and only TIME can tell when they will be the same . . . that is IF you can wait.
  

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Cheers,

Universal Player

TURKEY.

Dear PLayers,

sitting now in my hotel room. Its 01.30 am. Have a super cold since today morning. After today meeting I went for a walk round city center. Its really cold to walk. Lot’s of people are out and doing their shopping etc. I had a really nice time walking around in Istanbul. To bad I waa so tired and sick. Needed to get some rest at 15.00 pm. Been sleping all day long and just woke up a while ago. Having myself some food right now and doing the blog.
Tomorrow I’m changing Hotel, where the other models are living. The meeting with agency today went very well. “of course” ;)
But still our deal could have been better. But anyway. Will see what happens, in terms of work. I don’t know how long I will stay in turkey, maybe 1 week or 2 month. Depending on jobs and if I can Istand this freezing cold. Miss the heat. Grrrr...
But somehow the cold is always nice. Because you can dress up more, sit outside having a coffee and get a tan.. The sun here is super strong. So when going out, you really need those sexy shades at almost all time.
Not going to be to long today. My first day in turkey has been great. Excited what It will bring me tomorrow.

Cheers Players,

Patrick


Inside the plane. Time to destination



Turkish Flag


Hotel Signs. Dont have a clue at all what it says ?





Chef "Ahmed".


Having my first real turkish salad


On the way to the agency.


At the Agency in Istanbul. Met some turkish female models at the agency as well. And yes "Avi".. you can send them your dumb emails with photo as you wish.


PLAYERS,
Will tell you something now....
I just found out Avi and her family plus some people who call themself friends with Avi. They are doing everything possible to sabotage my career now. By emailng my agencies worldwide and speaking about me and Avi's problem etc. Also Avi and her family are making up some bullshit like I tried to rape her and theft her money etc. "Bullshit". How can I steel money from somebody who doesnt even have money since I meet her. She was sleeping on her friend" Niko Montinola" couch In the philippines when I meet her.
Everything during one year I have payed for. So Avi please tell me, how is it possible ????????????
All you have is your lies.... And you know that...
I will post you a special photo of us. And you tell me if I need to rape Avi ,WHO WAS MY WIFE BEFORE ? Thats fucked up to lie like that. But hey thats why Avi's family are losers. So Avi if your read this. I have told you before. You can email and try to do all the shit you doing to sabotage my career. Because end of the day. These people wont listen to you or our problem and what shit you got to say. Seriously. These are business people. And you can't bring them anything interesting ans useful. But I can. So do you and your family really think. Your bullshit will hurt me and my business ??? Sorry baby It wont. But in the other hand its bad "PR" for you. People dont like people who speak bullshit. They will only Pitty you for doing the things you do.
Rule 1. To become successful. WASH YOUR DIRTY LAUNDRY INSIDE THE HOUSE !

So I will spare you some minutes of work "Avi Siwa". If you want to contact them. You can contact the owner directly.
This is his email
serdar@flashmodel.com.tr Good luck !

Please show the world how intelligent you are ;)




THe view from the agency longe room. Its a very small office they have, but definitely the best agency in Turkey for modeling.




"Taksim" Is a market place and walking street.










Time for lunch !





Small walking streets leading off from the mainstreet.




Caf'e shop. There so many of them here...


P.S.

Does it really look like I need or would rape my own wife ?

No way....
Here's a exclusive pic from the Player. With my look and charm and good personality. Also check my neck, got two beautiful trophy's in two beautiful colour. I find threesome fun. Because its kinky. Avi love to have threesomes, especially with the girl.. I didn't mind that :)


I Need to rape a woman ?????
YEAH RIGHT ! YOU ARE SO LOSER's AVI & FAMILY. How low can you go as humans ?
I suggest you guys spend your time on something more productive ?

CHEERS,