MY BIRTHDAY 28 MARCH 07

DEAR PLAYERS,

Its my birthday today. Yeahooooooo... Getting 27.. Grrrrr....
Have been receiving so many kind emails from friends and fans from all over the world.
I didn’t expect to get so many both yesterday and today and they still continue to coming in. I’m so happy about this. Its such a tremendous great feeling knowing your life is appreciated by others ;)
Today I have been to one casting for a Tv-commercial and fitting for a Editorial.
Now back home at the model flat chilling out and typing a bit for the blog.
I’m suppose to go and get a cake for the house and the models. But don’t know if I want to do that.
Had a bit of argue with some one of the models which turned in to arguing with two models. One female and male model. The discussion was from yesterday (tuesday) with a male model in the apartment. I was discussing with him about why it haven’t been so much work lately for the models in Fashion agency. Our agency. I told the male model: One of the reason we don’t get the jobs even though we are better models then the other going to castings here in Istanbul. Its because when we attend a castings, some of the models in our group are talking loud while the client is looking at out portfolio etc. So many times while going for casting, client or the stylist need to tell the models in my group to SHUT UP !. But they don’t seems to understand that. They never shut up or act more professional. They are limited. So yesterday speaking to one of the male models about this. He totally defend himself and the other models by saying: Who cares, its Turkey man. The client don’t give a fuck about me ,and why should I give a fuck about them etc etc. Bla BLa
Ha ha ha, this male model definitely have the wrong attitude to become successful.
Already there I could see that this male model doesn’t share the same belief as me. And I don’t tend to force him either to think like me. Not saying I’m the Shit yet !. But I do have achieved a few more things then most of the models I’ve cum across so far.
So I also told the male model: Since the agency here haven’t been able to assist us with enough work ”because we are more expensive then other agencies etc”. Try to contact photographers and clients yourself. You can Trust others to do things for you. Then he sad. Patrick.. Where have you done that ??? I told him. All the places I’ve been to for modeling. I always try to contact people in the fashion Industry even if it is just to say hello. You need to work it man. But most of the models don’t. They so stupid. I never thought I was going to say this, but there’s not energy or intelligence what so ever talking to them. Day in day out. All they talk about is stuff”Good & Bad” about other models and people in the fashion Industry.And how many bottles of Vodka and drinks they had the night before.
Anyway,
Yesterday we all had been out for castings. Since we have a very tight schedule everyday between castings. The models hardly have any time to eat. The agency ”Fashion” is giving their reason like”its so much traffic this and that Bla bla.” excuses after excuses. What about if they started to do a bit better time management so the models would have at least 30 minutes to eat something. To look good you need to eat and sleep well. Its a common sense which,but the agency here in Turkey doesn’t seem to understand ? Or do they ?
So after finishing castings for the guys, we all where suppose to join the girls for their last casting. But I decided to take a taxi home from the girls casting. Which was only 5 minutes away from the model apartment. For me if my day is over. I prefer to use my time to something more useful then sitting around waiting for the other models 1-2 hours not doing anything. That is what called “Time management”. So while I was leaving the other models behind. It turned out the models started to talk, like they always do. And I came in to the subject even if I weren’t there.
Well.. It didn’t really surprise me at all. Why ? Because the other models I’m living with don’t bring anything to read or to manage their time while waiting. So of course they will talk about,is Bullshit to have something talking about. I know. Because I use to be like that. Not that much. But to some extend. Until I found what I love to do and how to make it come true. I work for it. Nothing comes free.
Anyway. I had a good talk (10 minutes ago with the male model I argued with today. We have gotten things straighten out from today. I approach him the male model, and told him that, we do share different points of view in life and have different ways of belief’s and thinking. No point fighting about it. It wont make us better as people. especially when we living under under the same roof and work together (For now). LET’S WORK AS A TEAM !
After that everything became good again. When you have issues with people. Don’t pretend and smile like nothing happened.. Try to talk to them about it. It will make you feel so much better and so will they. No point having grudges towards each other what so ever. It wont make us happy. at all.
So while I was writing for my blog. Female model “ildiko” surprised me with a Birthday cake and bottle of vodka with all kinds of mixers. I didn’t really expect that from anyone. Not because I don’t think the other models have a heart. They do have a heart, all of them. And they are caring for one another.
I was so happy for the surprise she did for me, as well for what ‘Paola’ did for me with decorating the wall saying “ Happy Birthday PATRICK “. It doesn’t take much to make a person happy. By showing each other a bit of love, time to time. I’m sure the world would be a much better place for all of us.
Today I also spoke to everyone in my family except my older sister who lives in Hamburg( Germany). The wished me a happy birthday and told me how much they love me.
I just had a 2 hour brake speaking to the other models, and sitting now back at the keyboard. Listening to the other models in the background. And trust me. Its not much to listen to. Fuck ! Model life....
Happy I don’t share the same views as them. To bad all this happen on my birthday. But I’m not crying for them not being smart. Im crying because they aren’t smarter people to talk to. No ambition what so ever. Just TALK.......
I had myself a talk with the some of the models again while taking a brake from the writing.
Man they are all sooooooooooo stupid, can’t hardly get through their heads. ha ha.. Its really amazing..... You need to be here with me to understand it.
Or is it me who is do dumb, who is dreaming about doing better and want’s to do better and trying to motivate them ?
I don’t think so !!!
But hey. These models are adding good content to my life & experience for this blo. Only if they knew (I’m sure they will soon,after reading this). They give me more content then I could only imagine about.... Without them I wouldn’t have so much fucking good shit to write about today. Man, Im really truly blessed for having them around me ;) And with them around me. I will definitely finish my own book earlier then expected. Thanks !
Now all of them are eating the birthday cake, and watching the sports channel. Will take a picture so all of you can see. The talk about the corners and players how they play etc, Bla Bla ...... Same shit....Why don’t they just talk about how their life’s are and try to improve it for the better. Nooooooo... Trust me.. THEY DONT ;o
One of the models just sad 2 minutes ago. Its all about “Luck” Patrick........
Man, that really shows his not in control of the mind...ha ha ha .... What tha fucking loser he his.... SORRY MY LAUNGAGE, BECAUSE I'M NOT THAT RUDE TO PEOPLE.
AND I HONESTLY DON'T THINK HE IS A LOSER"REALLY". ITS JUST MY ANGER SPEAKING NOW ;)
I'M NEVER PISSED BECAUSE WE PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT OPINIONS ABOUT THINGS IN LIFE. I RESPECT PEOPLES OPINION AND WHERE THEY COME FROM. BUT I'M DISSAPOINTED AND PISSED WITH THE MODELS RESPOND TODAY TOWARDS ME. BECAUSE HERE I AM TRYING TO MOTIVATE THE HOLE GROUP HOW WE CAN GET MORE JOBS COMING IN ETC. AND ALL I GET BACK IS THERE LAUGH AND IGNORANCE TOWARDS US DOING BETTER AND GIVING EXCUSES." ITS THE COUNTRY 'TURKEY' FAULT, WE AREN'T DOING BETTER BECAUSE OF THE PEOPLE HERE" ECXUSES AND MORE EXCUSES THEY KEEP GIVING.... THIS WOULD NEVER HAPPEN IN MILAN "PATRICK".. YOU KNOW THAT BLA BLA.....
I KNOW IT WOULND'T, BUT WE ARE NOT IN MILAN NOW 'BROTHER'. SO LETS CHANGE STRATEGY AND BE MORE POSITIVE ABOUT THINGS. A BOOK HAS TWO SIDESN "REMEMBER THAT". CAN'T ONLY BE SEEN FROM ONE SIDE. BUT FROM BOTH SIDES. WE NEED TO ADAPT OURSELF'S TO THE ENVIROMENT AND LEARN FROM IT..WHEN I TALK ABOUT SUCCESS WITH THEM..
THEY THINK I TALK ABOUT MONEY WHEN I EXPLAIN "SUCCESS". I DONT !
WHAT I MEAN IS. IV'E NEVER SIT LIKE THIS AND NOT HAVING WORK COMING IN. SINCE I STARTED MY MODELING CAREER 5 YEARS AGO. I HAVE BEEN WORKING ALMOST 4-5 DAYS WEEK CONSTANTLY. AND I LOVE TO WORK, NOT FOR THE MONEY LIKE MOST OF THE MODELS. AND WORKED WELL BECAUSE I WAS PROFESSIONAL IN MY APPROACH TOWARDS CLIENTS, PHOTOGRAPHERS, STYLIST AND ANYONE I CAME ACROSS. PEOPLE SHOULD BE MORE APPRECIATED WHEN HELP IS COMING AROUND. BUT I KNOW. WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT AND ALL PEOPLE DONT WANT A HEALTHY LIFE, GREAT FRIENDS, GREAT LOVE LIFE, GREAT FAMILY , FINACIAL ABUNDANCE ETC. BUT I DO WANT ALL THAT. AND I DON'T INTEND TO SIT AROUND WAITING FOR IT TO HAPPEN. YOU CAN'T EXPECT PEOPLE TO DO IT FOR YOU. WE NEED TO DO IT OURSELF'S AND STOP BLAMING OTHERS BECAUSE THINGS AREN'T WORKING AS I SHOULD BE.

If I would ask all you Players !
Please write me in my comment box.
Do you think your life is determined by “LUCK” or do you think you “MAKE” your own destiny ?

I would really appreciate to hear all of your comments about this. Please write me ! Or do you also waiting for the Santa Claus to fall in your lap ??????


Going back to the small partt now. To learn some more about what I dont want to be. Being around models is the best way of knowing, what you dont want to become(Naiv,spolied, dumb, ignorant, fucked in the ass etc) The list goes on.....

Hope you all learned something from this. I’m sure you did ;)


DON'T HANG WITH DUMB MODELS ;)

P.S. I hate to argue with people. Life is to short for that....... I guess you all know me by now ??

Kisses and big hugs from The Birthday boy.

Love you'Players' all and thanks for the outstanding support you have given so far.

P.S. I want to express a special love to female model “ildiko” for being who she is and doing what she loves. Without speaking shit about others. I know she will become a very successful person in what ever so choose to do in life.
Kisses to ildiko and cheers to you.

Cheers to all players as well.
Wishing,
UNIVERSAL PLAYER


First casting for the day. Around 16.00 Pm for a Tv-commercial. About 20 models waiting when we arrived there.


Fitting for a Editorial.


OZGUR is a Fashion editor. His family business is running their own textile company as well in Istanbul since 15 years back only. And since the past four years , they are exporting to many countries around europe and asia. Very nice and easy to speak to. Best wishes for OZGUR and his family...


With Turkeys very famous designer for Men's wear "Ms Hatice"


Happy Birthday PATRICK !

A surprise gift from Paola yesterday, when I got back from the gym..


Luminita, me and ildiko.


Luminita & me.


I really like ildiko. Such a great person to come across in my life. Especially when there are so few people like her.
Keep it up beautiful.


Blowing the candles of the cake.
ildiko always happy and smiles with everybody.


Luminta & ildiko are firing up the candles.


The birthday cake from ildiko. Wow, the taste make you want to lick your fingers all night ;)


Hope I can cut the cake right... I do want to get married. hmm.. I already been married right ?


Hmmmm. Let's taste it... Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm....


ildiko says: Patrick I know you will like the cake baby ;)


Let me taste some ;) Mmmmmmmmmm.. Nice !


Luminita:
Ohhhhhh yeah,. Taste perfect !


Cake with Vodka. OF COURSE !


Cheers darling !


Group photo




Leticia and Haley just woke up. Leticia has been working since early morning and experience some drama with Turkish clients. Its not the first time for some of us ;( Welcome to the club !


Andreas from Germamy. What do you girls think about him, Hot or Not ?


I had a great day and evening. Actually couldn't be better. I learned so much today about life and people. That's the best of working with models. I learn ;)

Goiing to have myself another sweet drink , and then going downstairs to speak with Paola ;)

Signing out for today.

Cheers,

Patrick 27 years old .......